"Perfectly Flawed"

"I want to hurt you bad Make you paranoid And say the sweetest things"

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 03:08:06 GMT

I haven't wrote in this in years. Thank you boyfriend for inspiring me. Yes an amazing new boyfriend who finally treats me right. Sweet as pie to me ;) I'm totally not use to the sweetness but I really like it. My own Lloyd Dobler hehe. I had an eventful night of reading all my old entries. Boy we're some of them silly. I like that my last one was from halloween 2 years ago. It was indeed a great night. I also loved how one I listed things that I would do if I had won the lottery and it really felt good to see that I have accomplished some of those things :) I didn't need the lottery to do some of my goals hehe :) We I had intentions of writing more but I has a phone calls.

"I'm still scared shitless..."

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 14:54:30 GMT

I had the most amazing weekend!

"I once was a tree house I lived in a cake..."

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 02:55:50 GMT

My dog is very silly...Llama llama llama llama duck...

"Love is a battlefield..."

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 00:44:59 GMT

I am seeing Dashboard for the 6th time in September. Simply amazing. Uhh so its lonely without haveing Alicia around...please don't leave me ever again lol. It has only been 1 day lol. I have had way too much time by myself and I have done way too much thinking and now I'm feeling poopy, and I am writing in Lj clearly something is not right lol. I love my fisheye camera btw. I dont like working and not being able to do my own photography...I have been getting in touch with people from the past, I think it is a good idea? So far its been interesting catching up...ok I must stop before I start being dumb...

"Albi the racist dragon..."

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 02:43:06 GMT

"Your beard is good"

"Gaudy apartment complex"

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 02:42:15 GMT

1) I feel alone still and it sucks.
2) I watched 2 movies tonight that is crazy for me (Grosse Pointe Blank with my husband and Running with Scissors).
3) I bought the cutest purse in the world today.
4) I paid off my credit cards and it was kind of a bummer but nice to know I'm not totally broke and I still get paid on friday.
5) I'm actually updating my livejounal.
6) My room is clean.
7) Still feel lonely...I think its the lack of males in my life now...
8) I don't have to work tomorrow.
9) I am watching Futurama and its funny.
10) Sarah Jessica Parker has a clothing line that comes out on thrusday so guess who is going shopping on friday...
11) I'm done.

"You're so damn hot"

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 02:05:28 GMT

"I don't think I could be dead without you" Sarah.

I will always and forever love you lol.

"Goodbye to you..."

Tue, 08 May 2007 03:37:57 GMT

You were a good dog even though I continually referred to you as fatass. At least you can be with Casey now...

THE SUICIDE MACHINES LYRICS

"Sometimes I Don't Mind"

There's something with the way you walk
There's something there that lights a spark inside of me
And it makes me want to sing - Makes me forget everything
There's something there inside your eyes
Lets me know you'd never lie - You fill me up and I know what you need
Do you know what you mean to me?

Well I watch you sleep sometimes and it feels like the first time
And you're always on my mind - Everyday is like the first day
And I talk to you sometimes even though you never talk back
And I buy you things sometimes 'cause I don't mind

There's something strange, I can't get mad
Even when you're being bad - just look at me, and I forget everything

I try but I can't be mean
You sit by me and I scratch your back
You lick my hands then I get a rash,
But that's okay - Because we, we are a team
You make a mess and then I clean

Well I watch you sleep sometimes and it feels like the first time
And you're always on my mind - Everyday is like the first day
And I talk to you sometimes even though you never talk back
And I buy you things sometimes 'cause I don't mind

There's something with the way you act
Makes me laugh when you chase the cats - You chase 'em around
And when it's close to feeding time, you stare at me and whine
You won't lay down, you'll hardly sit
I give you a bath when you smell like shit
But you don't mind - And we go out every now and then
And when you're done then we come back in

Well I watch you sleep sometimes and it feels like the first time
And you're always on my mind - Everyday is like the first day
And I talk to you sometimes even though you never talk back
And I buy you things sometimes 'cause I don't mind
Yeah I don't mind
Yeah I don't mind

"I can make a grey sky blue"

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 02:08:58 GMT

Blah blah blah...that is my life...i cant wait for vegas...I need to move away or get away for a month or 8...

"I like the way you work it"

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 04:05:09 GMT

I had a fantastic night tonight! I love Mondays at the bean!

"you say its your birthday...."

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 17:57:41 GMT

I had such a great Birthday!! I can't wait until saturday!!!

"21 and Invincable"

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 00:18:07 GMT

I'm almost 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Only 3 hours and 40 mins to go!!!!

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 03:50:43 GMT

P.S. A 6 year old called me baby today...

"So this is christmas..."

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 02:17:02 GMT

We put up our christmas tree today. It's cute and I like it. I love the holidays but i hate them at work. It was crazy this weekend. If parents wouldnt be nuts it would be so bad. Alrighty peace out g's

"Down on main street"

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 15:16:38 GMT

I'm going to see HelloGoodbye and Reggie and the full effect tomorrow. That will be my 4th time seeing reggie. I'm excited. Brand New and Dashboard on Saturday. What an amazing week. Except Im super tired b/c i've been sick since last thursday :( maybe I just need some cowbell...oh well I will see Sarah on Saturday which I'm almost more excited about then any of these shows. I miss her too much...yup I think that about does it...

"I have become comfortably numb."

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 01:28:24 GMT

I saw Roger Waters last night. It was one of the most amazing things I've ever seen! For those of you who don't know he is one of the original singers of Pink Floyd. Simply Amazing.

"so I can die happy"

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 17:10:23 GMT

ME JAMES AND BECCA ARE GOING TO SEE DASHBOARD AND BRAND NEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FLOOR TICKETS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LIFE IS GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Hello how are you nice to see ya"

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 17:35:15 GMT

Woo hoo! Btw sarah do not read this... Pittsburg was amazing! The Andy Warhol Museum was Amazing! The drive there took about 2 hours longer then expected, but we made it. And we ate at a really nice place I felt so chic. I felt like Carrie :) And our hotel room was fantastic. 4 star hotels are amazing. We also went to the dream cruise on Sat. That was a ton of fun. I found a $20 on the sidewalk I was very excited. We took mercedes with us. She is so damn cute and people were gushing all over her the whole night. Then I haven't really done anything the past 2 days. That was my whole plan. I should take more 4 day weekends off lol...only if i could. Yeah I dont want to go to school next week. That means even less time for a life... Oh well lets look at some pretty pics...

yeah I have a lot more but im sure these are enough for now...alrighty heres to working the next 6 days in a row alright! Adios~*

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 16:32:40 GMT

Yeah so I haven't written in here in a while. Uhh well i got sick lsat sunday got better then got sick again this sunday. How fun...All I say is that I better be ready by friday b/c that is when we are leaving for PA. Me James and Becca went to see Garden Weather last friday. Good show. Took a pic that I really like...

Uhh hung out with sarah last thurday. She is now up at school and I miss her already, but it will be fun to write letters again. We had en eventful day by going to the bean of course then we went to an arcade and took really cute pictures...only if my stupid scanner was working. Then we went to best buy lol what a way to leave liviona.

Uhh I might be going to the casino tomorrow...it depends how I feel. I probably shouldnt for money reasons any way but oh well school is coming up soon and that means no more fun for me. I can't wait to have tomorrow off...I've worked 28 hours in the last 4 days. Remind me again how thats part time? Oh well...Alrighty good enough...peace out thugs...

"Makin' banana pancakes..."

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 16:47:47 GMT

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Allison!

The fingerprints of allison are virtually indistinguishable from those of humans, so much so that they could be confused at a crime scene.
If the Sun were the size of a beach ball then Jupiter would be the size of a golf ball and allison would be as small as a pea.
Allison is the only one of the original Seven Wonders of the World that still survives.
Allison can turn her stomach inside out.
Twenty-eight percent of Microsoft's employees are allison.
During severe windstorms, allison may sway several feet to either side.
Bananas don't grow on trees - they grow on allison.
Ancient Chinese artists would never paint pictures of allison.
Allison can be found on a Cluedo board between the Library and the Conservatory.
Allison can sleep with one eye open!

"Super mans dead"

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 00:41:33 GMT

FLAMING BUTTERFLYS

"Life is waiting for you..."

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 15:28:10 GMT

I'M GOING TO THE ANDY WARHOL MUSEUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is all...

"She's buying a stairway to heaven..."

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 18:11:16 GMT

So I got my pop9 camera developed the other day and woo hoo it works this time! So here are some of my fav ones that worked...

"Nothing is real and there is nothing to get hung about Strawberry fields forever"

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 02:08:54 GMT

So yeah I got my hair cut yesterday and I got nice emo bangs and they are really cute I'm very happy. I also went on a cute date with Alicia. We played ping pong...no one will get that but us and I love it. We also hung with Jason and Jackie it was cute.I saw Courtney on Monday and did some much needed girly talk.I saw Sarah on Sunday and it was very hott b/c well shes the hottest girl alive...I feel very accomplished lol. And I also managed to fit James in there too so how about them apples. Time for a fun survery b/c I haven't done one in ages and this one involves music...

- - - - - - - Your Life: The Soundtrack - - - - - - - -
So, here's how it works:
Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, Real, etc).
Put the play setting on shuffle.
Press play.
For every question type the song that's playing.
When you go to a new question press the next button.
Put three for the Ending Credits.
Some songs fit perfectly.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Opening Credits: Joe Cocker*~*A Little help from my friends (Damn straight!)

Waking Up: Otep*~*Filthee ( I suppose thats why I always take a show in the am)

Falling in Love: A perfect Circle*~*Weak and Powerless (thats kinda hott...)

Fight scene: Piebald*~*American heart (Ok nope that doesnt fit at all too emo lol)

Breaking up: The Used*~*Say Days ago

Getting back together: Peter Frampton*~*Baby I love you way (Perfect!)

Secret Love:Rob Zombie*~*Feel so numb

Life's okay: Slipknot*~*Wait and Bleed ( I know I always feel that life is ok when I listen to this song lol)

Mental breakdown: Otep*~*Bloo Pigs (This actually fits quite well)

Driving: Alkaline Trio*~*Time to waste (I feel like my shuffle knows the questions another good one :) )

Flashback: Wheatus*~*Teenage Dirtbag (Well I was just a teenage dirtbag baby...)

Partying: Dashboard*~*As lovers go

Happy dance: Finch*~*What it is to burn

Regretting: Static X*~*Love Dump (I keep getting hardcore songs lol more then emo its odd)

Long night alone: The Early November*~*Every night's another story

Final Battle: The Early November*~*I wanna hear you sad

Death Scene: Nsync*~*God must have spent a little more time on you (great choice)

Ending Credits: The Juliana Theory*~*Top of the world
The Sex and the city Theme
Three dog night*~*Old fashioned love song

Well that was fun. I like survery and I like music so woot woot! How about that 3 updates within a few days not months! I'm so BA...

"So happpy together..."

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 15:03:58 GMT

I watched this movie last night called adaptation. It was pretty good I really liked the opening...
\m/Do I have an original thought in my head? My bald head. Maybe if I were happier my hair wouldn't be falling out. Life is short. I need to make the most of it. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I'm a walking cliché. I really need to go to the doctor and have my leg checked. There's something wrong. A bump. The dentist called again. I'm way overdue. If I stop putting things off I would be happier. All I do is sit on my fat ass. If my ass wasn't fat I would be happier. I wouldn't have to wear these shirts with the tails out all the time. Like that's fooling anyone. Fat ass. I should start jogging again. Five miles a day. Really do it this time. Maybe rock climbing. I need to turn my life around. What do I need to do? I need to fall in love. I need to have a girlfriend. I need to read more and prove myself. What if I learned Russian or something, or took up an instrument. I could speak Chinese. I'd be the screenwriter who speaks Chinese and plays the oboe. That would be cool. I should get my hair cut short. Stop trying to fool myself and everyone else into thinking I have a full head of hair. How pathetic is that. Just be real. Confident. Isn't that what women are attracted to? Men don't have to be attractive. But that's not true. Especially these days. Almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these days. Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence? Maybe it's my brain chemistry. Maybe that's what's wrong with me. Bad chemistry. All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance or some kind of misfiring synapses. I need to get help for that. But I'll still be ugly though. Nothing's going to change that. \m/